That is a bit of a confusing feeling. I dont want to speak to a particular ex ever again but I do feel the need to know his whereabouts and his goings on, in a loose sense. Every once and awhile, I see if he had updated his blog and then I feel very depressed and sometimes he still mentions me even though it's been six years.

It's a strange thing, having loved and still loving but knowing better, no longer wanting. Strange indeed.